What This Past Year Taught Me About Intuition, Emotional Regulation, and Consistency

How nervous system support changed the way I live from the inside out.

Looking back, I can see how this space was building me just as I was building it.

About a year ago, on my birthday, I started this website.

At the time, it wasn’t a brand or a movement in my mind. It was a place to capture patterns, questions, and lived observations — especially around intuition, emotions, and change. I knew there was a deeper purpose, but when my husband asked what I was building, my answer was simple:

“I don’t know exactly — This is kind of a trust fall."

I had enough clarity to start, but not enough certainty to explain where it would lead to. Every so often something would click, and I’d rush to reorganize everything as if I’d finally found the full picture. After repeating that cycle a few times, I saw the pattern clearly:

This wasn't about the end result of anything in particular. It's been about mastering the process.

This year didn’t teach me what to build.

It taught me how growth actually works in the body and mind.

Drawing strength from persistence: "The only path forward is to go through."

Feeling First, Understanding Later: How the Nervous System Processes Change

One pattern became almost embarrassingly undeniable as the months went on:

I feel things. Everyone feels things, so the surprise wasn't feeling itself, it was my incredibly small capacity to fully feel an emotion.

When I don’t allow myself to feel, I default into an older survival strategy — overthinking is an example (I wrote on it here). I began to see it clearly as mental overdrive to control uncertainty. It has it's uses, but it actually disconnects from the smaller bits shaping the situation underneath. It's a hope destroyer, creative killer, and heavy burden to bear.

Frameworks like Human Design helped me put a face to the name for this pattern. If you are interested in exploring what your Human Design chart has to say about you, I recommend the HDesign app for a beginner friendly look. My chart specifically points toward emotional inner authority - feeling before deciding. But knowing how decisions work in my best favor isn’t the same as having the capacity to tolerate what shows up emotionally.

Learning how the nervous system functions is where things started feeling tangible.

The body responds before the mind interprets.

The nervous system detects safety, threat, resonance, or misalignment first.

The mind then responds using patterns that are known to help the system survive.

The connecting behaviors or actions made from these "threats" weren’t wrong — they just didn't serve the journey I was on anymore. It kept me certain, and this journey requires the latter. Trust fall and all.

They were built to manage emotions, not to receive information from them. So, nervous system regulation was the name of the game last year, and the results have spoken for themselves in how I show up in motherhood, professionally, in relationships, and in how I show up for myself.

Intuition vs. Trauma: Why Function Matters More Than Labels

At some point, intuition always gets questioned by you or by others:

Is this intuition — or is this anxiety?

I’ve been in spaces where the two are used interchangeably as if they are the same. That observation is fair, and also incomplete.

Yes, some internal signals come from hypervigilance, pattern-scanning, or past survival strategies. The nervous system learned to predict in order to stay safe. That’s real — and normal. Seriously, if you've lived through trauma, there are very valuable neural pathways that have been "worn in", meaning if you give them a different purpose, it's a real game changer. I don't call this intuition and see it more like discernment.

What changed for me was letting go of the need to label the signal and asking a more practical question instead:

• Does this signal require effort or constant restraint?

• Does it support my system, or exhaust it?

• Does it narrow my choices, or expand my capacity of understanding?

That shift reframed intuition for me entirely.

I realized that allowing feeling to come over you without dancing with it is a skill that aligns with a lot of psychics, mediums, or whatever you'd call someone deeply in touch with their senses and meanings behind them.

This year became about holding emotional sensation steady long enough for it to complete its cycle — without acting on it, overanalyzing it or suppressing it. When feelings were allowed to pass through safely, they became information instead of fuel for dumpster fires that I was absolutely done fueling.

Emotional Regulation, Effort, and Sustainable Consistency

Whether a signal originates in trauma or intuition matters less to me now than this:

Am I giving it energy — or am I receiving energy?

For a long time, my inner world required constant management:

• vigilance

• explanation

• self-correction

That level of effort is unsustainable in the life I want to live, regardless of the language used to justify it.

Nervous system education showed me something simple and grounding:

Meaning becomes clearer as the body becomes more regulated, rested, and resourced. Intuition is a natural human ability and thrives when you nourish it.

Once I stopped forcing interpretation and focused on building internal support, consistency stopped feeling like pressure and started feeling like a relationship worth investing in.

Why Consistency Changed When I Stopped Forcing Clarity

Consistency to strengthening my intuition actually brought more uncertainty.

Before, the more certainty I held the more safety I would feel.

What worked out better was honoring the correct sequence for myself:

• sensation

• regulation

• repetition

When I respected that order, consistency became more like devotion and growth and less like force or limitation.

Well, Here We Are

Looking back, I can see how this space was building me just as I was building it.

Learning about the nervous system gave me language for experiences I’d rushed past for decades because my mind told me I was too sensitive.

This site became less about content and more about orientation. I needed to reorient myself in feeling. I needed to create safety in feeling. And this site has become documentation of what that can look like and where it can take you.

The Philosophy Behind This Brand

This brand isn’t built on choosing intuition over logic — or emotion over thought.

It’s built on restoring symbiosis between mind and emotion, thought and action, and understanding from a deeper place so actions become more meaningful and momentous, emotions fuel you with clarity, so life starts filling your soul with the kind of fulfillment that isn't tangible.

I'll be continuing to bring value to the blog, podcast, and newsletter that invite perspective from lived experience, gained knowledge, and routes less taken that have proven to be worth the scenery. Follow along for the journey, the findings, and the thrill of not knowing what's coming next but feeling the way through.